Let Me Break Your Heart

Let me break your heart.
Just once, I want to tear it in two.
These walls I have climbed to get here have left my heart dangling in the hollows of my chest.
I will make you a stranger.
I will spin your head till it screams.
I will fill your lungs with silence
And I will lose you in the dark.
Like so many have lost me in this dark.
Just once, I said,
I wish to stand tall on your soul shouting “No, no you cannot have this,
you cannot have me.”
I want to leave you without words
Without awkward chuckles or pauses to slip into and hide inside of.
I will leave you with nothing but your breath
Left curling in the rain
Following after me and my silhouette.
Oh, just let me break it.
Just let me be the one you can’t have,
The one that walked away,
The one that will not take the time to whisper after you
Or mutter your name into nothingness.
Just let me disappear.
So that you may stay and sit and want me.
I want the love songs to haunt you.
I want my eyes to pierce yours and make them gleam and blur.
I want my smile to light your fickle heart on fire.
I will boil you.
I want to march through your mind and across your dreams,
Leaving your heart homeless.
All I ask is once, one time.
One time, let the music play and let the green of my eyes wash over you like the night
Kisses the stars,
Only to then be executed by the sun arising.
I am bright.
Just once, let my light blind you and rob your heart of all rational emotion.
I will strip you of all that is logical and unquestionable.
Your heart and I will play all these games.
The ones you know so well.
And when we’re done,
Your heart will kneel before me in exhaustion,
Wanting only truth.
But all I asked was once.
Once for you to chase my love.
Wanting it.
Needing it.
And never getting even one slice
Of this heart of mine.
Beating away in the hollows of my chest,
As I run,
And you follow.
Just once, I said.
Just let me have this night,
This dance,
This date,
To blow you away
And break your heart.
Crushing,
Shattering,
And leaving you alone to pick up the pieces.